Remembering...

As November draws near I find myself thinking about our little girl who would have been 4 years old this year.  I wonder what she would have been like, what her favorite color would have been, would she have been a tom boy or a girlie girl.  I find myself again wondering why.  Then I remember the verse God gave me before I even got pregnant with her, Psalm 77:13-15, “Your ways, O God, are holy. What god is so great as our God?  You are the God who performs miracles; you display your power among the peoples.  With your mighty arm you redeemed your people, the descendants of Jacob and Joseph.”  I remember the song that was my prayer every day:

Blessed Be Your Name

In the land that is plentiful

Where Your streams of abundance flow

Blessed be Your name

Blessed Be Your name

When I’m found in the desert place

Though I walk through the wilderness

Blessed Be Your name

Every blessing You pour out

I’ll turn back to praise

When the darkness closes in, Lord

Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord

Blessed be Your name

Blessed be the name of the Lord

Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name

When the sun’s shining down on me

When the world’s ‘all as it should be’

Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name

On the road marked with suffering

Though there’s pain in the offering

Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out

I’ll turn back to praise

When the darkness closes in, Lord

Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord

Blessed be Your name

Blessed be the name of the Lord

You give and take away

You give and take away

My heart will choose to say

Lord, blessed be Your name

I remember our most wonderful pastor/friends David and Patty and the most awesome friends EVER!  Sitting with us in silence sharing our pain.  I think of the memorial service we had and hope that it did help others there that had experienced a miscarriage.  I remember those dark days of asking God why after 10 years of infertility would he let us get pregnant and then take her away and coming to the place of complete surrender that He is God and I am not, that His word is true and that when He says He has a plan for my life, a plan to prosper and not to harm me that He means it. And then I think of all the blessings and how I can look back and see God present at every moment of that horrible week. 

I have such a hard time believing that 4 years has passed already.  Every year I think of her on the anniversary of the miscarriage and on the anniversary of my due date.  Not in a morbid way but just because she was part of me.

 2 Conrinthinas 1:3-5

"Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God."

Faces

Summer 2011...so far

Summer so far has been filled with going to the park with friends,

                                             Swimming,                                     

                                           Bike riding,

                                           Projects,

                                                     Cutting down trees,

                             







Trips to visit friends,

And relaxing with the paper by the fire.

Adventures!

This weekend we celebrated Adam's 36th birthday!  Even though it's not until Sunday May 8th.  We had so much fun!  My parents watched Noah for us so we could take a road trip to Des Moines for Popeye's Chicken with our friend Pam and Bob Friday night.

My parents had kept Noah overnight so we got a special treat of being able to sleep in on Saturday morning.  Then Adam and I drove to Omaha to see Les Miserables.  We got there early and had a little lunch in this unique cafe that didn't charge for it's food.  They served every person who came through the door regardless of their ability to pay or not.  Donation were accepted for those who wanted to give.

 

Then we went and walked in "Central Park."  It was a really beautiful day and the park was pretty too.

 

Then it was show time!  Les Miserables!  Adam had been waiting months for this!  And it was so amazing!  

 

After the show we had dinner at this little place...

 

And then we drove home to this little face, who we had missed very much!!!

Then and Now

I was gonna do a then and now post....but it won't let load the scanned picture of my boy just minutes old 3 years ago at this very time.  So - the now picture will have to do.  What an amazing blessing this little boy is!

A Rant

It's been a month since I last wrote...time goes by so fast sometimes.  As April 5th draws near and I contemplate the fact that my baby is going to be three years old this reality hits me very hard.  It seems like just yesterday he was this little smiling and cooing lump in my arms.  Now he is this tornado of energy that never stops moving and talking, "what are you doing Mama?" or "Where is the kitty?" or "I sorry. I go to time out."  He is so stinking cute.  And he is almost three.  Anyone know how to freeze time?  Just for a day or two. 

I love this face!  I love this hair! I love his noise!  I love his questions!  I love this boy!  Time goes by too fast for me! 

PS  I named my horse Maggie!

My horse and her need for a name

Since I was a little girl I have wanted a Paint horse.  Guess what I got for my birthday this year?  Yep, you're right my awesome Daddy got me a  Paint horse. I just met her tonight and she is an amazing animal.

She is awesome.  I love when dreams come true.  I haven't named her yet.  She will have a registered name.  An official name so to speak, but they are usually something long and complicated.  I need her "barn" name or "nick" name.  I am considering the following names:
               1. Pearl
               2. Maggie
               3.  Hadassah
               4.  Adira (this means strong in Arabic)
Leave a comment with your vote!  I really can't decide!